Seagull, Rembrandt pastels on board

I began this several days ago as an experiment . I took an old mounted art work it got for $1 and painted it with sand mixed with house paint. Then I put masking tape to frame it, and painted it in the middle.

I am very depressed about my situation in the CF, I was promised one thing but given another. I could lose all my medical care and benefits by end of month if the compensation is not approved and everything signed… With 1 week to do it. I can’t say how I feel, just completely flatlined. Just want everything to stop and go away. Hoping prayers will help as I am slipping back to how I felt last August when dx with PTSD. And that ain’t good. Just have to hold my breath for a week…